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I Wasn’t Ready
A Cop’s Story of Service, Survival, and God’s Grace

This memoir is my personal story about cumulative trauma, identity, faith, and the human cost of service — written for first responders, their families, and anyone who wants an honest look at what happens beneath the uniform.

I Wasn’t Ready is a powerful memoir for anyone carrying the hidden weight of trauma, doubt, or exhaustion, especially those who serve on the front lines. With raw honesty and a faith forged in darkness, Washington State Trooper Corey Kingman shares how cumulative trauma, PTSD, addiction, and despair nearly cost him everything, and how God met him in the very places that threatened to break him. His story offers a rare, compassionate look at the realities first responders rarely speak aloud and the grace that can pull a person back from the edge. Perfect for first responders, trauma survivors, support groups, or ministries, this book is a strong companion for anyone longing to know they are seen, valued, and never beyond the reach of redemption.

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What began unexpectedly quickly became a passion project and has now evolved into something much more. I am proud of what I have lived through and am now able to share with you all through this memoir. I am even more excited for what’s ahead!

The book was released on June 9th, 2026, and is available at all retailers.

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Corey Kingman is a Washington State trooper with more than twenty-five years of experience in law enforcement and dispatch. A survivor of cumulative trauma, PTSD, and an attempted suicide, he now shares his story to bring hope, healing, and faith to first responders and their families. Corey is a licensed pastor with the International Church of the Foursquare Gospel and the founder of Cross Commissioned, a ministry dedicated to encouraging those who serve on the front lines. He lives in Yakima, Washington, with his family.